May 2010
4 posts
in reference to socialising
I sure am a winner tonight - It’s 10:30 and I’m in bed. Wallowing in my own self pity. I am the creator of my own demise. But on the bright side, someone on the bus said that it’s better to be crazy and interesting than sane and boring. It was a good point, considering about 85% of the bus was insane, and laughing and talking and telling jokes and smelling only a bit bad for it being such a...
May 14th, 9:12 AM
It is nice when you wake up first thing and pull the curtains aside to reveal bright blue sky and a sun that casts it’s warmth on the sidewalks and the tops of houses. It’s also nice to wash your face while the coffee brews, with the radio on in the background, voicing the news that you aren’t actually listening to. It is also so nice when you open the door out to the yard...
Party Never
There comes a time when you don’t want to live in a house that has parties anymore. I’m there, right now. The guy that lives next to us had his roommate ditch out on him - he’s now out $500 some odd dollars. Bummer for him, right? He thought it would be a great idea to have a kegger/house show with a couple of bands this weekend to help raise some money to pay rent.
The thing...
April 2010
14 posts
one thing
if there is one thing I can’t give up, will never for the life of me sacrifice this great sensual pleasure, it would be baking some sugary delight in my oven. baking anything in my oven, for that matter. For most of you who read this, you’ve never seen my fucking oven, but you should. It’s this tiny convection oven that I bake (small) cakes, cookies, loaves and roast my...
a few things
- our house is going up for sale today. I am only bummed out a little bit, apparently the house has already been sold a few times since some people have lived here - the likelihood of this place getting torn down and redeveloped are slim. I just don’t want to see another back yard in Vancouver disappear. I want to live like a real person. - if I were to write like anyone, it’d be J D...
limits
I can’t breathe! Can’t figure out if it’s anxiety or the air being full of allergens that I’ve never been allergic to before. Either way, GREAT WAY TO RUIN A RUN - and my whole day. I’m in a bad fucking mood now and don’t want to talk to any of those fuckin’ assholes.
:)
April 26, 8:17 PM
Have I told anyone yet that I’ve been asked to photograph Amanda & Matthew’s wedding this August? Yes! But now I’m telling the internet. Amanda asked me not too long ago and I basically sort of lost my mind about it. I was floored, flattered and now I’m currently at really nervous. So, what if I take bad photos? I have never been asked to take any pictures for anyone...
April 23, 11:12 AM
Sometimes I wonder that my own romantic capabilities rate at a level of about 3.5 out of 10. I seem to always get matched up with guys (in a natural way, no set-ups) who are just…wow. Romantic. And know exactly what they want. And can say it all. Whereas I, smile and stand back a bit…enjoying the view. Not sure what to say or how to say it. This usually happens about four weeks in....
April 18
Peace to Devon Clifford of You Say Party! We Say Die!, who passed away yesterday. Despite the fact I didn’t know him personally, he has affected a huge part of my community and I can feel how deep the loss is. I’ve been thinking many thoughts toward his friends and family. A sad time. Reminds me that I can’t forget I’m living.
a night.
I walked home from the train station feeling like I was going to vomit. Moments earlier I walked away from someone who took off in a cab while I angrily bought cigarettes - paying with the writing on my hand that stated I loved somebody. Whatever that meant. The phone call last night that told me that I didn’t reciprocate the feelings that were professed over and over again, that I was...
April 9, 10:35 AM
I want floor-to-ceiling book shelves and wide, old wood planked floors; bare, with area rugs of bright, happy colours and windows that open wide and stand without curtains. My friend Kyle posted this link (see below) not so long ago, and it makes me go crazy in a deep desire to buy a house and make it completely, all my own. Unfortunately my savings account is quite, shall we say, ummm not...
Turkey vs. Ham
Evan did you eat turkey yesterday
Heidi ham! easter is for ham and it was delicious.
Evan yeah ham’s alright.
Heidi no way!
Evan i like turkey.
Heidi ham is like, 100% better than turkey
Evan woah i seriously can’t believe you just said that
Heidi really? i can I mean, I like turkey when I’m eating it or whatever but I prefer ham. Hands down
Evan are you pulling my...
April 5th, 12:16 PM
Easter Monday! I ate enough food yesterday to probably hold me over through today. Dinner at my aunt’s was mostly a success, she made some really wonderful food (ham was perfect!) including green beans with bread crumbs that is my favourite side dish of all time. I made the chocolate stout cake and everyone loved it - or at least, they said they did. I have this weird complex (which I think...
April 2nd, 5:51 PM
I just made the fucking meal of my life. The best eggs I’ve ever poached, slices of avocado, a whole tomato sliced n’ fried, some greens and a piece of grainy toast with butter. Lots of fresh ground pepper n’ some salt. I feel AMAZING! Wish I took a picture…sadly, all that lovely food is in my tummy. I bought running gear today (for the rain & wind we’ve been...
April 1st, 9:07 AM
I remember when it was April Fools Day in elementary school - we’d have our tricks planned out and we would carefully (or quite poorly) execute them throughout the day…or at least until noon, because the rules were that you could ‘celebrate’ April Fools up until lunch time and then it was over. So I guess it was kinda ‘April Fool’s Morning’. Lucky for me,...
Hey, what’s happening? I’ve got something good (Scottish) going on. That’s all.
Love, me.
March 2010
12 posts
March 26 2010, 2:55 PM
If I were to be anything else in the world, I think I would be an evening breeze.
March 23, 2010 3:36 PM
I am laying underwater in a warm spot for days or so it seems and all the people I’ve been been seeing I can’t quite remember what they’ve said I dream about making porridge with vinegar and boiling eggs for people who never stayed the night I wash the dishes in the morning and make coffee strong enough to make you stand and face whatever it is you couldn’t sleep about last...
emahoy tsegue-maryam guebrou - the song of abayi...
A day in March
I want the warm sun, a grassy patch to lay on and something fizzy to drink.
March 11, 2010 9:23 PM
A little girl (about five) came up to Lisa and I at work today to order a drink and show off her cool pyjamas. She pointed to a table and said, “I’ll have what they’re having, ” and when Lisa commented on her jammies she said, “LOOK at how SHINY they are!!!” as she jumped up and down, pulling the sides of her pants away from her body so the most shine could be shown off. We nodded in amazement and...
March 9, 8:26 PM
While I was looking through my Grandparents’ closet this morning trying my Grandmother’s heels on my Grandpa said, “You know, your Grandma had what they call Triple-A feet,” which I can only assume he meant that they were very lovely.
March 5, 2010 10:37 AM
Last night I went to see a show with my friends Kim and Leila. The band? Black Wizard, a handful of twenty-year-olds from New West who were screaming sex appeal and all had better haircuts than us. I said to Leila, “It’s like they’re all mini versions of guys we already know!” Which was true - this one guy was dressed in long, dark hair accompanied by a plaid headband that...
9:29 AM
you know what’s embarrassing? to me, anyway. when you post an entire album of photos of you and your new life in your new house and pretty much all of the photos are closeups of you, your cats, your husband, or you and your husband showing off your tongue-rings - and behind you are just piles of garbage. at least you’re happy, right? living like a monkey is part of leading a healthy...
Further Added:
In February, I decided to buy a ticket to Sasquatch this year (never been), and to go in the 10K Vancouver Sun Run on May 9th. So far, I’ve been on one run (about 4 K) and I haven’t been able to since, because I can’t breathe and I wake up coughing up all the vitamins that were once in my body.
The Month of February in Review
So as anyone who’s been part of the modern world in the recent days, you know that a major event has come to a close in Vancouver. Last night I sat on a couch that wasn’t mine and watched the Canada vs USA hockey game and cheered and ate chicken wings and drank caesars and had a really good time. The past two weeks have made me realize that I’m in a sort of moral dilemma. I love...
February 28th, 2010
I am beginning to get comfortable with admitting I am wrong. It actually feels pretty good. Tomorrow: Month of February in Review.
January 2010
6 posts
The Month of January in Review
I feel as though a common question that pops up this month is “Whatcha been up to?”. I cannot count how many times people have asked me, but I know it’s more than thirty - which is a lot! Most often my answer is, “Oh, not much…” and if it’s not that it’s “Same ol’, you know…” But really, if you must know, I’ve probably...
2 tags
Books I've Read 2010
So at some point a week or two ago after looking at the stack of books I want to read, I decided to write down all of the books I read this year. I have a goal in mind: in the past couple of years I have read much less than I used to - I blame it on being in a half-lit cave of something some may call depression (and I blame because I need to have a reason for everything in life), and I also blame...
january one two
I am going to San Francisco in July! I painted my living room the colour of Ivory Coast! I better get some fucking money back when I file my taxes this year! I am finally going to buy a curtain rod instead of tacking up my curtains to the wall!
January 7, 9:20 AM
By the end of this year, I want to be well on the way to working in a space that doesn’t require me to serve people food, coffee, pastries, booze, etc.
January 5, 2010 8:48 PM
Things I Think About #27: On a walk home in the evening, after doing whatever it was that I was doing, wouldn’t it be nice if I could text my tea kettle to turn on and be boiled by the time I arrived home?
I thought it was funny!
Heidi : the most depressing is crying with a mouth full of food. 9 hours ago
Kandis: :( yes you lose everything. 9 hours ago Colin: Jesus Lord 8 hours ago Christian: crying while driving or crying while cooking crying while eating is pretty epic though. The other great one is crying while slurping a glass of wine. 3 hours ago · Amanda: I like the cry that involves throwing a few ativan...
NYE, 6:29 PM
TO 2010
Absolutely. To a year of letting go of the bad things, moving toward the good, and holding on to the most important. Possible Resolutions: - to develop my poor posture…into something a big straighter - to eliminate the ‘life-suckers’ from my repertoire and focus on the lovely people in my life - start a savings account - travel somewhere I’ve never been before - take/develop more pictures...
December 2009
6 posts
December 28, 2009. 10:23 AM
So I am home as of last night at about 6 o’clock in the evening and
I spent enough time alone/with my family over the course of a week that I am feeling both adequately crazy and creative. I am going to go for a long, long, long walk (something to do with barely moving for five days and eating a lot of cheese) and then fix those military* pants I’ve been meaning to hem/take in...
December 22nd, 9:19 AM
I’m on my first cup of coffee and it feels like the strongest cup in the world. It’s not. When I make coffee at my Mom’s place it drives me crazy. The coffee is in the kitchen. The computer is in the ‘attic’, third floor. At home in my little basement suite that may or may not have flooded yesterday because I actually don’t know, Sean updated his status to the...
The beginning of Christmas.
It’s a week before Christmas and I feel like a bag of dicks. I fell asleep on the couch last night watching an SNL Christmas special. I woke up at six in the morning and without brushing my teeth I went directly to bed and slept until ten-thirty. If I wake up with unbrushen teeth it pretty much sets my day off as miserable. Why did I do that? You can’t brush your teeth before having...
December 15, 2009
This is the first year I’ve made Christmas cards and actually sent them. (Naturally, this is an update from my last post two weeks ago. I actually went to the post office yesterday and waited in line for twenty minutes to buy stamps. The stamps are on the envelopes…all I have to do now, is walk to a mail box.) On a side note: Where do I put the photos I’ve printed but not given...
December 1st, 2009. 11:25 AM
Last night I walked over to my sister’s place in a nauseous daze to make Christmas cards. Everything in her kitchen was washed with cozy. On the stove was a potato soup, green beans sauteed in garlic and butter, and in the oven a roasted beet salad. Five of us gathered in the living room with glasses of wine and plates of food and talked about eating the face of a pig (a few of them had gone...
November 2009
7 posts
a romantic
On the way downtown I saw from the bus window the man I think about every day of my life. On the corner, casually standing, in thought, occupied. I could see his eyelashes from a mile away. I stared at him something fierce, willing him to look up and see me through the bus window...you will see me. you will see me this time. we are going to meet today… of course, his phone prevented us from...
I also want the Moosewood Restaurant’s Cooking For Health cookbook for Christmas. Thanks. I will hold any repeat copies of The Best American Nonrequired Reading for a friend who has requested to have them. A recipe I want to try from the Moosewood website; probably because I’m thinking about Christmas every day now:
Annie Wade’s Sweet Potato Soufflé
(popular holiday dish with...
and I ask myself
‘remember when you used to play music loud?’
I want the Best American Nonrequired Reading editions 2004 to 2009 for Christmas.
I… I just don’t know about a harmonica sound in a funk song. It ain’t funk if there’s a harmonica.
10:58 am, Friday N/06
It seems that perpetually, my apartment smells like liver sausage. I was telling Lisa yesterday while we were trying to cheer each other up (after all, it seems things do get worse when things are already bad) about the chopped liver at Kaplan’s however long ago that was now. And she says, “You know, I just can’t like it. It looks and smells like cat food. I just don’t...
This morning when I woke up, I opened the window to relieve my bedroom of the bacon smell. Bacon is nothing but a good smell, except when it lingers at your pillow for longer than a few minutes. I am still studying the basement air flow. I stumbled to the kitchen, made coffee and sniffed out a not exactly fresh turd Lemmy left in my storage space. I rubbed his nose in it, filled the sink, and...
October 2009
15 posts
